7/08/2009 11:39:00 PM
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Sometimes i realli do not understand God's plan and i feel so fearful in times of uncertainty. Yet sometimes i feel that everythg in this world is realli held in the hands of God. Nomatter how insensitive i m and how wrong i make decisions, at the end of dae, God will juz move everythg such that the puzzle fits nicely together as long as a prayer was once made and you juz decide to leave thgs into God's hands.
God's timing is juz so interesting. This time i realli kinda felt wat it meant by God is never too earlie, never too late but juz on time. If this happened too earlie, no fruits will bear forth. If this happen too late, fruits would haf dried up. But cos it happened right on time, going awae for a year i believe would only serve to strenghthen relationship and move everythg into right direction.
And now when i reflect back upon things that happen in the past in our lives, it feels lk God is juz preparing us for this moment. Juz lk wat i alwaz pray, "Prepare us Lord". So i juz wanna leave the remaining 1 year while i'm awae in God's hands. I want to trust in him. I may realli be scared but courage is not the absence of fear but the determination to continue despite the fear.
So i want to just continue to walk with courage with God holding my hands to guide me thru each and every single step. Hope when i come back, everything tt i haf now is not a dream but a dream going into fruitation.